I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m now on that point of my “career” which later on would be described as the “challenging” years, including lots of struggle, failures, rejections but oh so many important and useful lessons (yeah right – I thought the five years in University were enough already). In example, this is the time when many ask me to work for them, but when in exchange I ask them to pay me adequately for my work or compensate my expenses, they step back and say no. Or choose another one.
Sorry for complaining, but I do feel like I should say this loud since so few seems to understand this. And as a young person in Finland I don’t seem to be the only one (you’re not alone, fellow ones!). I’ve done my traineeships, I have my degree and I’m quite sure I know thing or two. And I have the valuable skills and knowledge needed for managing successful projects and positions. I can’t waste my energy and time on too many projects which offer me “great material for your portfolio” or “publicity and outreach”. No. Although I happily receive those too, I’d also (and more importantly) need real money, for my rent and food, just to begin with. It’s not easy to make the ends meet in one of the most expensive countries in Europe.
I do know the times are hard and especially Finland isn’t the ideal place to look for paying jobs, but I’m not ready to throw away my idealism and opportunism. And so I’m more than ready to move out off this country. I work with the things I can and enjoy (even without receiving any money from them) and which I think develop my skills and character. I train, drink coffee and try and fail and try and fail better. And think where exactly I should move when I’ve finally gathered enough money to hit the road (in April it should be; spring, what an excellent time for new beginnings!).
After this lengthy intro, I’d like to admit that I’ve really started to think the option of taking just a job of any kind on a location in which I could also study / train languages and my mountain skills (yes, Alps and seasoning have kind of stuck in my head). The so called shitty jobs (note: for me there are no shitty jobs really – except when we talk about slavery) could also be an option for me, regardless of my education and extensive professional experience. Initial plan was do that already this winter, but somehow I got stuck on a dream (and actual process of working on it) about finding a real paying job from a capital city (capital, but not Helsinki though) with a contract long enough so I could settle (for some years at least) and with the awesome benefits like my first ever real holidays typical for the Scandinavian working culture. But now, after couple of months and too many dead ends I’m ready to stop dreaming and start working; to say goodbye to the normal life and choose the abnormal one. In other words, I’m choosing to take the road which leads back to the starting point. And of course I’ve also been thinking how I should just by a van and start living the #vanlife….
Having said all this, I have to admit that this current situation isn’t so bad after all. I have enough money for rent and food (for now). And even some for traveling (traveling if something keeps me sane and well, alongside training). Most of my problems are just champagne problems. I don’t need to work according the normal office hours. And because of that, I can ski in the daylight and write the evening away. I’m free to travel whenever and wherever I like to (or almost – some places just doesn’t fit my budget, unfortunately). Moreover, when nothing is sure everything is possible (and that everything will be awesome and make me happy, I’m sure of it). When the time comes, I can sell the unnecessary stuff and hit the road, direction the best possible place on earth for me right then.
Cheers for new beginnings!
PS. One day I realised that one of the best people in my life right now (who belong in there more than others) are the ones who support me and see the potential in me but also and more importantly challenge me and my ideas. Who either are the voice of reason or who give me inspiration and courage. Kisses to you!
Where: Lapland, Finland